But today I am feeling more than just hungry for food...
All day I have been longing for more, yearning to satisfy my appetite for life by rising above my current limitations and lack...feeling oh-so-hungry to reach my goals...
I hunger to be debt free.
I yearn to more fully satisfy the requirements for science certification.
I wish my friends were nearby. I am starving for good conversation. I want to be with someone I love.
I want to freed from fear and blessed by confidence. I long for someone else to pour more hope into me.
I am starving for encouragement...I am a gaping abyss, not satisfied easily. I feel needy.
Why do I so strongly feel the need for these things? Why do I feel unhappy as I feel the lack of achievement? Why have I been unable to satisfy myself and unable to find solace with others' help? I feel very guilty...I have good friends, I have been supported and encouraged today, and I cannot complain about my life. God has greatly blessed my journey.
Why am I so hungry for things I do not have? Perhaps I should not feel guilty and pained by my hunger, maybe it is my lack of patience that should worry me.
It is difficult to wait hungrily for my tasty pizza to be ready, but it would not taste right uncooked, and it would burn my tongue if I ate it right out of the oven. Perhaps I will be able to meet all of my goals and satisfy my hunger by persisting and waiting for God's perfect timing.
Maybe I should not feel guilty for wanting more, rather, I should practice and exercise my patience. Patience does not come naturally, it must be learned as you wait. "He has made everything beautiful in its time" Eccles. 3:11aNIV
I have many dreams...I feel terrible longings to achieve more. To gain things I lack. To experience life in ways I have not yet enjoyed...
Job 42:1-2 "Then Job replied to the LORD: 'I know that You can do anything and no plan of Yours can be thwarted"
Thy will be done heavenly Father. Please help me reach success by learning to have patience and persistence as I reach to accomplish the dreams you have blessed me with.
A Dream Deferred
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore–
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over–
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
Written by Langston Hughes
“A hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12
