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Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Monday, December 23, 2013
Hard to Believe
Adam found a new book to use in his devotions yesterday. We were browsing John MacArthur's book store, and this book caught his eye:
Hard to Believe: The High Cost and Infinite Value of Following Jesus
This book explains many reasons why Christianity can be hard to embrace. It tackles topics of evangelism while addressing how to present God's message of salvation in today's pop and media based culture.
I Corinthians 1:19-21
For it is written: "I will destroy the wisdom of the wise,
And bring nothing to the understanding of the prudent."
Where is the wise? Where is the scribe? Where is the disputer of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of this world? For since. in the wisdom of God, the world through wisdom did not know God, it pleased God through the foolishness of the message preached to save those who believe.
Hard to Believe: The High Cost and Infinite Value of Following Jesus
This book explains many reasons why Christianity can be hard to embrace. It tackles topics of evangelism while addressing how to present God's message of salvation in today's pop and media based culture.
I Corinthians 1:19-21
For it is written: "I will destroy the wisdom of the wise,
And bring nothing to the understanding of the prudent."
Where is the wise? Where is the scribe? Where is the disputer of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of this world? For since. in the wisdom of God, the world through wisdom did not know God, it pleased God through the foolishness of the message preached to save those who believe.
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Perseverance
He who perseveres will receive the crown of life...
My father made this bookmark for me years ago. I keep it in my Bible to daily remind me of the importance of perseverance.
One of my favorite Bible verses is James 1:4.
But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfectly and fully developed, lacking nothing.
You cannot enjoy life fully if you rush through it. You cannot develop fully if you race through tasks without learning from them. You cannot become your true self, the person God is shaping you into, if you do not endure the circumstances he has set in your life to mold you into a well rounded person. Our heavenly father loves us just the way we are, but he loves us too much to allow us to waste our potential. With perseverance and God's strength, slowly he is transforming our lives daily.
My father made this bookmark for me years ago. I keep it in my Bible to daily remind me of the importance of perseverance.
One of my favorite Bible verses is James 1:4.
But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfectly and fully developed, lacking nothing.
You cannot enjoy life fully if you rush through it. You cannot develop fully if you race through tasks without learning from them. You cannot become your true self, the person God is shaping you into, if you do not endure the circumstances he has set in your life to mold you into a well rounded person. Our heavenly father loves us just the way we are, but he loves us too much to allow us to waste our potential. With perseverance and God's strength, slowly he is transforming our lives daily.
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Thankful
Exodus 34:6-7a
And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin.
I'm feeling incredibly thankful today. I have a roof over my head. I have my husband, who is my best friend and soul mate, here with me. We have the basic necessities of life. We have love from our friends and family. And we are growing in grace and knowledge through all the experiences God leads us through.
"What I like about experience is that it is such an honest thing. You may take any number of wrong turnings; but keep your eyes open and you will not be allowed to go very far before the warning signs appear. You may have deceived yourself, but experience is not trying to deceive you. The universe rings true whenever you fairly test it." -C. S. Lewis
At times when I feel impatient with my growth, I remind myself that Jesus spent thirty years in preparation for his short years of ministry on earth. Joseph spent many years in slavery, and in prison as he grew in experience and wisdom to serve God as a leader in Egypt. I've been discouraged at times, thinking of all the classes and courses I have taken and must still take to prepare for teaching full time in California. I am sometimes discouraged when I see all the tasks and financial responsibilities we must address before Adam and I are ready to financially afford children of our own. I worry or feel disappointed in myself because I am not ready to reach all my dreams now. But, if Jesus in his humanity went patiently through things that equipped him to do what God called him to do, I know I must also be patient as God develops my character and skills through hard work.
I'm thankful that pouring myself into my studies and my teaching work is enabling me to better serve God's children. I'm grateful that Adam's career is progressing too- he is becoming well respected for his talents and professionalism. Adam is now in high demand for student and independent films.
We don't have much: no full time jobs, no fancy home or car. However, we have each other. Life is about serving God through serving others. Having things is not that important. I pray that we can use the blessings God gives us to make the lives of those around us better. I pray that God continues to help us enjoy what we do have. I thank God that we can admire the things we see around us without feeling the need to acquire more possessions.
We don't need much. All we need is God. Adam & I want to live gratefully, noticing all the small blessings God pours into our lives every day.
I thank God for his deliverance. I praise God for the wisdom he gives his children when they ask for understanding. I am grateful for health, a part time job to help pay for life's necessities, and I praise God for the strength He gives me to face the challenges I meet every day.
Psalm 33:18-22
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us Oh Lord, even as we put our hope in you.
And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin.
I'm feeling incredibly thankful today. I have a roof over my head. I have my husband, who is my best friend and soul mate, here with me. We have the basic necessities of life. We have love from our friends and family. And we are growing in grace and knowledge through all the experiences God leads us through.
"What I like about experience is that it is such an honest thing. You may take any number of wrong turnings; but keep your eyes open and you will not be allowed to go very far before the warning signs appear. You may have deceived yourself, but experience is not trying to deceive you. The universe rings true whenever you fairly test it." -C. S. Lewis
At times when I feel impatient with my growth, I remind myself that Jesus spent thirty years in preparation for his short years of ministry on earth. Joseph spent many years in slavery, and in prison as he grew in experience and wisdom to serve God as a leader in Egypt. I've been discouraged at times, thinking of all the classes and courses I have taken and must still take to prepare for teaching full time in California. I am sometimes discouraged when I see all the tasks and financial responsibilities we must address before Adam and I are ready to financially afford children of our own. I worry or feel disappointed in myself because I am not ready to reach all my dreams now. But, if Jesus in his humanity went patiently through things that equipped him to do what God called him to do, I know I must also be patient as God develops my character and skills through hard work.
I'm thankful that pouring myself into my studies and my teaching work is enabling me to better serve God's children. I'm grateful that Adam's career is progressing too- he is becoming well respected for his talents and professionalism. Adam is now in high demand for student and independent films.
We don't have much: no full time jobs, no fancy home or car. However, we have each other. Life is about serving God through serving others. Having things is not that important. I pray that we can use the blessings God gives us to make the lives of those around us better. I pray that God continues to help us enjoy what we do have. I thank God that we can admire the things we see around us without feeling the need to acquire more possessions.
We don't need much. All we need is God. Adam & I want to live gratefully, noticing all the small blessings God pours into our lives every day.
I thank God for his deliverance. I praise God for the wisdom he gives his children when they ask for understanding. I am grateful for health, a part time job to help pay for life's necessities, and I praise God for the strength He gives me to face the challenges I meet every day.
Psalm 33:18-22
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us Oh Lord, even as we put our hope in you.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
God's Power
God's greatness and power is displayed in so many aspects of our lives. God has delivered us from many difficult and dangerous situations. He has always shown us his way and helped us in our times of need.
After attending church with Mike and Kim today, Adam and I recounted the many ways God has used his perfect timing to set us on our life paths. As we drove home together, Adam and I felt incredibly blessed to look through this window that is rarely so clear, and to see God's fingerprints in every part of our lives.
We are continually supported by friends and family. We are prayed for by our brothers and sisters in Christ. God speaks to us daily in his word.
Adam and I praise God for his guidance. We trust that as we pursue his will for our lives, and as we grow closer to Him through prayer and Bible study, we will continue to see his blessings in our lives.
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Worry
“Don’t worry.”
People have been admonishing me to stop worrying all my life. If worrying was an Olympic sport, I could
have earned a ten. Unfortunately, my
friends’ and families’ well meant reprimands did not help ease my worried mind
in the least.
Worry is like vomit.
When you have the stomach flu, even if your friends and family warn you
not to vomit, most likely you cannot keep yourself from throwing up. Vomiting is something you can fight, but you
cannot win until your stomach flu has run its course.
Healing must come before worrying can stop. This does not mean that life must be good or
trouble free before you can stop worrying.
However, it does mean that worry is a symptom, not the main
problem.
How do I keep from stressing out? Rick Warren of Saddleback Church recently gave
me a new perspective and helpful advice to overcoming worry:
Worrying is stewing without doing. Whenever possible, take action when you feel
worried.
Don’t panic, pray!
Turn your worried thoughts into prayer.
If we prayed as much as we worried, we would have much less to worry
about.
Watch less television.
Going on a media fast can dramatically reduce your stress level. Not only will your mind be calmer without the
drama of television thrillers, but you will also have more time to read God’s word and
pray. “If you look at the world, you'll
be distressed. If you look within, you'll be depressed. If you look at God
you'll be at rest.” – Corrie ten Boom
Learn to be more content.
Enjoy what you have now, without waiting for something else to be
happy:
- Stop comparing yourself, your life, or your things
- Stop thinking that having more will make life better
- Learn to admire without having to acquire
Thank God in all things.
(not for all things, but in all things: have an attitude of
gratitude and look for the good in every day and in every situation.) “When we are powerless to do a thing, it is a
great joy that we can come and step inside the ability of Jesus” -Corrie ten Boom
Think about good things.
Consider how God has blessed and rescued you in the past. Dwell on your previous successes. Think about future opportunities, and realize
that the difficulties you face are all part of God’s perfect plan for your
life.
“There is no panic in Heaven! God has no problems, only plans.” -Corrie ten Boom
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble,
whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is
admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Talk to God about everything. Having a lifestyle of prayer will heal your
soul and help you to feel God’s love.
“There is no pit so deep, that God's love is not deeper still.” -Corrie ten Boom
Matthew 6:28b-30
See how the flowers of the field grow. They
do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you
that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the
field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not
much more clothe you—you of little faith?
I like to think of all the flowers that are never seen by human eyes,
but God still cares for them.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Impossible
“It
is kinda fun to do the impossible.” –Walt Disney
I try never to shy away from doing the 'impossible.' Ever since college, people have been warning me that the goals I am trying to accomplish are too much for me, or that my tasks are impossible to achieve with all the many obligations that are in my life. BUT, I remind myself, with God all things are possible.
When I am told I am aiming for something that is impossible, I take caution, slow down, and check the direction I am sailing towards. I need to be sure the effort will be worth it. I ponder my options, I seek other solutions...but, if doing the impossible is the only way to reach my dreams, I shoulder the burden gladly.
The hardest part about doing the impossible is that it takes an incredible amount work. On second thought, there is something more difficult than accomplishing the task itself. Even harder then the hours of labor is applying self control and persistence to keep at the work.
Frederick Douglass once said, "If there is no struggle, there is no progress." If we boldly face the challenges of each day, remembering that God is our strength, we learn to rely more on him. It is during the times of my life when I am attempting to do the impossible that I feel my need for God most.
If an impossible dream is realized, God's fingerprints in your life are self evident. I must never forget to give God the glory for what he has accomplished through me. When you reach your impossible dream, the two most important things you must do is give credit where it is due, and to enjoy your hard earned success.
I try never to shy away from doing the 'impossible.' Ever since college, people have been warning me that the goals I am trying to accomplish are too much for me, or that my tasks are impossible to achieve with all the many obligations that are in my life. BUT, I remind myself, with God all things are possible.
When I am told I am aiming for something that is impossible, I take caution, slow down, and check the direction I am sailing towards. I need to be sure the effort will be worth it. I ponder my options, I seek other solutions...but, if doing the impossible is the only way to reach my dreams, I shoulder the burden gladly.
The hardest part about doing the impossible is that it takes an incredible amount work. On second thought, there is something more difficult than accomplishing the task itself. Even harder then the hours of labor is applying self control and persistence to keep at the work.
Frederick Douglass once said, "If there is no struggle, there is no progress." If we boldly face the challenges of each day, remembering that God is our strength, we learn to rely more on him. It is during the times of my life when I am attempting to do the impossible that I feel my need for God most.
If an impossible dream is realized, God's fingerprints in your life are self evident. I must never forget to give God the glory for what he has accomplished through me. When you reach your impossible dream, the two most important things you must do is give credit where it is due, and to enjoy your hard earned success.
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Teaching
"A good teacher is one-fourth preparation and three-fourths theater." -Gail Godwin
I have my one-fourth preparation to complete and email my principal this weekend. Sigh...writing your own quality curriculum is hard work. However, aligning objectives to national standards, setting up modifications for special education students & English language learners while planning lessons develops my talents as an educator. Someday I would like to write curriculum professionally.
God has promised to help me as I follow him, and I trust he will give me the drive and perseverance to complete all I must this weekend. I feel weak- all I want to do is relax and recover from a demanding school week, but I know that my students need me to be ready for them. God will give me the strength to keep on working, the courage to tackle intimidating tasks, and the wisdom to keep myself from procrastinating. I choose to live courageously and optimistically.
Life is about how you face the circumstances, not about what circumstances you find.
Psalm 27:3
Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear. Though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.
"The God who spoke still speaks. He comes into our world. He comes into your world. He comes to do what you can't." -Max Lucado
I have my one-fourth preparation to complete and email my principal this weekend. Sigh...writing your own quality curriculum is hard work. However, aligning objectives to national standards, setting up modifications for special education students & English language learners while planning lessons develops my talents as an educator. Someday I would like to write curriculum professionally.
God has promised to help me as I follow him, and I trust he will give me the drive and perseverance to complete all I must this weekend. I feel weak- all I want to do is relax and recover from a demanding school week, but I know that my students need me to be ready for them. God will give me the strength to keep on working, the courage to tackle intimidating tasks, and the wisdom to keep myself from procrastinating. I choose to live courageously and optimistically.
Life is about how you face the circumstances, not about what circumstances you find.
Psalm 27:3
Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear. Though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.
"The God who spoke still speaks. He comes into our world. He comes into your world. He comes to do what you can't." -Max Lucado
Friday, November 1, 2013
Wisdom
Proverbs 1:5
let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance—
At Bible study the other night, we were reading the first chapter of Proverbs and discussing wisdom. I've been thinking about what wisdom means to me...
1) Knowing that good intentions are not enough.
Terrible things have happened with the best intentions, for example, the Crusaders murdering and pillaging throughout the middle ages. In my own life, I'm seen Christians fail epically and cause great harm taking foolish actions for the 'cause of Christ.' You must look before you leap into a direction you feel 'called' to pursue. You must remain very close to Christ so you can wisely determine if it is truly his choice before you commit to taking a questionable action.
2) Seeking out the best solution, not just any solution to a problem. A mark of wisdom is the ability to consider a problem from many angles, to explore the impact of possible solutions, and to choose an ideally beneficial resolution.
James 1:4-5
Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
3) Realizing that training, not trying harder, is the key to unlocking spiritual maturity. Any fool can tell themselves they will overcome a sin, or defeat temptation next time by simply trying harder. A wise Christian realizes that after a failure, they must train to overcome obstacles in their Christian growth. Nothing can replace daily times of prayer and Bible study. Just as you can't run a serious marathon without training, you can't expect to develop spiritual maturity without taking the time to train yourself regularly in God's scriptures and to develop a lifestyle of prayer.
4) Understanding the importance of self control is crucial. If you don't have self discipline, you will not be able to follow Christ. Self control is a tool that can be used to accomplish any goals or dreams you have for your life. You must be willing and able to give your all and do your best to reach the heights of your ambitions.
5) Prioritizing wisely is the only way you can accomplish all your goals.
You will never have time to pursue every alluring opportunity. You must make the time to accomplish what is most important to you. You must decline some tempting commitments in order to develop perseverance and to spend your time wisely to make your dreams come true.
6) Developing quality is much more important than quantity. One piece of Godiva chocolate is better than ten candy bars of the discount brand. Need I say more?
7) Becoming a better version of who you are is true personal growth. Be true to yourself, but following God's heart instead of your own selfish desires. Study the scriptures to find your identity in Christ. Release your innermost fears, and let God bless you richly as he shows you how much he loves you. Learn to see yourself through heaven's eyes.
"We are what we believe we are." -C.S. Lewis
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
8) Choosing to cultivate your relationships with wise people. "You become like the people you interact with." -Donald Miller
James 3:13
Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.
let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance—
At Bible study the other night, we were reading the first chapter of Proverbs and discussing wisdom. I've been thinking about what wisdom means to me...
1) Knowing that good intentions are not enough.
Terrible things have happened with the best intentions, for example, the Crusaders murdering and pillaging throughout the middle ages. In my own life, I'm seen Christians fail epically and cause great harm taking foolish actions for the 'cause of Christ.' You must look before you leap into a direction you feel 'called' to pursue. You must remain very close to Christ so you can wisely determine if it is truly his choice before you commit to taking a questionable action.
2) Seeking out the best solution, not just any solution to a problem. A mark of wisdom is the ability to consider a problem from many angles, to explore the impact of possible solutions, and to choose an ideally beneficial resolution.
James 1:4-5
Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
3) Realizing that training, not trying harder, is the key to unlocking spiritual maturity. Any fool can tell themselves they will overcome a sin, or defeat temptation next time by simply trying harder. A wise Christian realizes that after a failure, they must train to overcome obstacles in their Christian growth. Nothing can replace daily times of prayer and Bible study. Just as you can't run a serious marathon without training, you can't expect to develop spiritual maturity without taking the time to train yourself regularly in God's scriptures and to develop a lifestyle of prayer.
4) Understanding the importance of self control is crucial. If you don't have self discipline, you will not be able to follow Christ. Self control is a tool that can be used to accomplish any goals or dreams you have for your life. You must be willing and able to give your all and do your best to reach the heights of your ambitions.
5) Prioritizing wisely is the only way you can accomplish all your goals.
You will never have time to pursue every alluring opportunity. You must make the time to accomplish what is most important to you. You must decline some tempting commitments in order to develop perseverance and to spend your time wisely to make your dreams come true.
6) Developing quality is much more important than quantity. One piece of Godiva chocolate is better than ten candy bars of the discount brand. Need I say more?
7) Becoming a better version of who you are is true personal growth. Be true to yourself, but following God's heart instead of your own selfish desires. Study the scriptures to find your identity in Christ. Release your innermost fears, and let God bless you richly as he shows you how much he loves you. Learn to see yourself through heaven's eyes.
"We are what we believe we are." -C.S. Lewis
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
8) Choosing to cultivate your relationships with wise people. "You become like the people you interact with." -Donald Miller
James 3:13
Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Priorities
I believe God gives me enough time each day to complete the things he wants me to accomplish...but I find it difficult determining which items on my to do list are most important to complete.
I can accomplish every part of God's work for me today...if I stay away from the television and apply myself diligently to my tasks. Sometimes I feel dismayed- a measly twenty four hours is all I have, and part of that is for sleeping, eating, and exercising. What I wouldn't give for more time!
I continually remind myself of my goals:
1) I must put God first.
Having my time of prayer, my personal Bible study, and taking the time to be the type of person God wants me to be is essential.
2) I must take care of myself.
I must take the time to eat well and live a healthy lifestyle.
3) I must address my long term goals.
Working on my evening classes, completing important paperwork for my induction as a California educator, and taking next steps to improve my chances of being hired full time next year is crucial.
4) I must meet my short term career goals.
I must be ready with my lesson plans, ready with my student behavior plans, and caught up on all school related activities.
5) I must take care of urgent household tasks.
I must be sure the laundry is done, the apartment is clean, and my appliances and car is in working order.
6) I want to take care of the little tasks that get pushed off daily.
Since I am on break, I am craving the completion of a million little tasks on my to do list. They keep pulling me in, since I know if I do not accomplish them on this break, I will likely have to wait until after Christmas to get to these tasks. I want to do them NOW, but, unfortunately, as they are not urgent, and as they are least important, I need to spend most of my time on other more important projects.
It is very difficult to hold strong with my priorities. I usually want to do the easiest items on my 'to do' list first, but then I run out of time and enthusiasm for my more important tasks.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please help me to prioritize wisely. Help me to focus and to put away distractions that prevent me from accomplishing what you would have me do today. Let me enjoy my fall break, but let me also get much accomplished so that when my break is over I can return to work with a feeling of confidence. Help me complete all my work with a joyful heart. Help me rejoice in the blessings you pour out today and laugh often. Amen.
Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
All that is not eternal is eternally out of date. -C.S. Lewis
I can accomplish every part of God's work for me today...if I stay away from the television and apply myself diligently to my tasks. Sometimes I feel dismayed- a measly twenty four hours is all I have, and part of that is for sleeping, eating, and exercising. What I wouldn't give for more time!
I continually remind myself of my goals:
1) I must put God first.
Having my time of prayer, my personal Bible study, and taking the time to be the type of person God wants me to be is essential.
2) I must take care of myself.
I must take the time to eat well and live a healthy lifestyle.
3) I must address my long term goals.
Working on my evening classes, completing important paperwork for my induction as a California educator, and taking next steps to improve my chances of being hired full time next year is crucial.
4) I must meet my short term career goals.
I must be ready with my lesson plans, ready with my student behavior plans, and caught up on all school related activities.
5) I must take care of urgent household tasks.
I must be sure the laundry is done, the apartment is clean, and my appliances and car is in working order.
6) I want to take care of the little tasks that get pushed off daily.
Since I am on break, I am craving the completion of a million little tasks on my to do list. They keep pulling me in, since I know if I do not accomplish them on this break, I will likely have to wait until after Christmas to get to these tasks. I want to do them NOW, but, unfortunately, as they are not urgent, and as they are least important, I need to spend most of my time on other more important projects.
It is very difficult to hold strong with my priorities. I usually want to do the easiest items on my 'to do' list first, but then I run out of time and enthusiasm for my more important tasks.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please help me to prioritize wisely. Help me to focus and to put away distractions that prevent me from accomplishing what you would have me do today. Let me enjoy my fall break, but let me also get much accomplished so that when my break is over I can return to work with a feeling of confidence. Help me complete all my work with a joyful heart. Help me rejoice in the blessings you pour out today and laugh often. Amen.
Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
All that is not eternal is eternally out of date. -C.S. Lewis
Monday, October 21, 2013
God's Way
Psalm 25:4-5
Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
I am praying that God makes his path clear to me. I am praying that my heart is soft and that my eyes are open to His vision for my future. I am asking God to bless Adam and I with wisdom, and to give us discernment to make the best choices. I am requesting that God grants us success in our ventures. Even more importantly, I am asking that God show us which opportunities to pursue in order to fulfill His perfect plan for our lives.
"Since God is mighty enough to ignite the sun, he is mighty enough to light your path." -Max Lucado
I know that God has promised to guide us as long as we put him first and stay open to His leading. I know the road to success will not be easy. "Victory is not the absence of problems, it is the presence of power. God's power is greater than any problem. His victory swallows up all adverse circumstances. We can stand strong, as more than conquerors, when we know that He is with us."
- Joyce Meyer
I am praying that God blesses us with his joy, his strength, his wisdom, and his power so that our lives can bring glory to our heavenly father.
Psalm 25:12-15
Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him. He will spend his days in prosperity, and his descendants will inherit the land. The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them. My eyes are on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare.
Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
I am praying that God makes his path clear to me. I am praying that my heart is soft and that my eyes are open to His vision for my future. I am asking God to bless Adam and I with wisdom, and to give us discernment to make the best choices. I am requesting that God grants us success in our ventures. Even more importantly, I am asking that God show us which opportunities to pursue in order to fulfill His perfect plan for our lives.
"Since God is mighty enough to ignite the sun, he is mighty enough to light your path." -Max Lucado
I know that God has promised to guide us as long as we put him first and stay open to His leading. I know the road to success will not be easy. "Victory is not the absence of problems, it is the presence of power. God's power is greater than any problem. His victory swallows up all adverse circumstances. We can stand strong, as more than conquerors, when we know that He is with us."
- Joyce Meyer
I am praying that God blesses us with his joy, his strength, his wisdom, and his power so that our lives can bring glory to our heavenly father.
Psalm 25:12-15
Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him. He will spend his days in prosperity, and his descendants will inherit the land. The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them. My eyes are on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare.
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Dutch Baby Breakfast
Proverbs 17:22a
A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing,
Today is a good day! I've slept in, enjoyed a good 'virtual' breakfast sent by the Ohl family, and had time to relax as I organize my to do list for the next week. My list is many pages long...so much online work for class, so much paperwork for teaching, and hours and hours of lesson planning. I wonder if I can handle it all and then I remember one of my favorite quotes, "Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly." Robert Kennedy
I HATE failure, but my fear of failure is not enough to keep me from pursuing my dreams. I will take on my to do list one step at a time. I am ambitious, and yet, I will enjoy every moment of the day that I can, especially my breakfast today.
Psalm 16:11
You will show me the path of life, in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore.
A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing,
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I HATE failure, but my fear of failure is not enough to keep me from pursuing my dreams. I will take on my to do list one step at a time. I am ambitious, and yet, I will enjoy every moment of the day that I can, especially my breakfast today.
Psalm 16:11
You will show me the path of life, in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Joy
Joshua 1:8
Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.
Keeping God's word in our mouth and in our mind, instead of speaking of and thinking of the problems we face sets us free.
Joshua faced an incredible array of problems in his life. However, he was able to be strong and courageous despite the overwhelming odds against him.
On my way to God's promised land, I must cut the chords that connect me to dwelling on past disappointments and the hold my problems have on my mind. Only when I break free can I truly enjoy the blessings God is giving me today. God is big enough to handle all my problems.
God's dream is not to make my life easy. God's highest plan is not to make me rich, successful, or popular. God's plan is to use circumstances in my life to bring himself glory and to bring me closer to Himself.
Joy gives Christians the strength to continue pursuing the dreams and goals for which our heavenly father has called us.
Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.
Keeping God's word in our mouth and in our mind, instead of speaking of and thinking of the problems we face sets us free.
Joshua faced an incredible array of problems in his life. However, he was able to be strong and courageous despite the overwhelming odds against him.
On my way to God's promised land, I must cut the chords that connect me to dwelling on past disappointments and the hold my problems have on my mind. Only when I break free can I truly enjoy the blessings God is giving me today. God is big enough to handle all my problems.
God's dream is not to make my life easy. God's highest plan is not to make me rich, successful, or popular. God's plan is to use circumstances in my life to bring himself glory and to bring me closer to Himself.
Joy gives Christians the strength to continue pursuing the dreams and goals for which our heavenly father has called us.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
God's Help
This morning I was reading a selection of Genesis, and this verse was especially encouraging:
Exodus 4:11-12
The Lord said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
I have some important observations and evaluations coming up...I've been fighting off worried thoughts, trying not to let nervousness steal my joy as I prepare for my evaluations. So much depends on them...I give my all every day, however, this is where 'the rubber meets the road,' this is my chance to shine while my overseers take a short while to watch me teach.
It is heartening reading the story of Moses's life this morning. He was a flawed individual, prone to making mistakes, often angering God, but still given God's grace and forgiveness. In spite of his fears, sin, and poor choices, God used him to save many people.
The Israelites were in an unfair situation. They had been suffering and waiting for God's help for many years. In God's perfect timing, He planned a fantastic escape that was filled with drama and miracles. I've been noticing that God's stories are often thrilling and poignant. God could just wave the problems away, however, our Master Storywriter chooses to create life stories that inspire and excite instead.
Sometimes I can't help but wish that God would just sweep my challenges away, and make my life easier. But I know that whatever challenges he leads me through, and whatever difficulties he saves me from will bring him glory and make the story of my life more interesting. And who doesn't love a good story?
Psalm 22:19
But you, O Lord, be not far off;
O my Strength, come quickly to help me.
I need to view all situations that come my way today from God's perspective. I will not be alone when I teach my students. I will not be unaided when I am observed and evaluated. Viewing challenging situations from God's point of view helps put them into perspective. Thankfully, I will not have to report to Pharaoh today as Moses did in my scripture reading this morning...I have only to face a principal and a mentor teacher, and I know God will strengthen me and guide me.
Exodus 4:11-12
The Lord said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
I have some important observations and evaluations coming up...I've been fighting off worried thoughts, trying not to let nervousness steal my joy as I prepare for my evaluations. So much depends on them...I give my all every day, however, this is where 'the rubber meets the road,' this is my chance to shine while my overseers take a short while to watch me teach.
It is heartening reading the story of Moses's life this morning. He was a flawed individual, prone to making mistakes, often angering God, but still given God's grace and forgiveness. In spite of his fears, sin, and poor choices, God used him to save many people.
The Israelites were in an unfair situation. They had been suffering and waiting for God's help for many years. In God's perfect timing, He planned a fantastic escape that was filled with drama and miracles. I've been noticing that God's stories are often thrilling and poignant. God could just wave the problems away, however, our Master Storywriter chooses to create life stories that inspire and excite instead.
Sometimes I can't help but wish that God would just sweep my challenges away, and make my life easier. But I know that whatever challenges he leads me through, and whatever difficulties he saves me from will bring him glory and make the story of my life more interesting. And who doesn't love a good story?
Psalm 22:19
But you, O Lord, be not far off;
O my Strength, come quickly to help me.
I need to view all situations that come my way today from God's perspective. I will not be alone when I teach my students. I will not be unaided when I am observed and evaluated. Viewing challenging situations from God's point of view helps put them into perspective. Thankfully, I will not have to report to Pharaoh today as Moses did in my scripture reading this morning...I have only to face a principal and a mentor teacher, and I know God will strengthen me and guide me.
Sunday, October 13, 2013
My Balancing Act
I just received a card in the mail from my family! The Cosner clan and my immediate family signed and sent me a lovely reminder to live a balanced life:
When I find my fears are too big, I realize my view of God is too small. God is in control of all circumstances. He knows the outcome of every event in my life. God has been so good to me in the past. I know he will continue to bless me in the future as I seek to live a balanced life.
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Friday, October 11, 2013
Patience
Hollywood, with the movies and television it produces, projects the illusion that people must wait about two hours to get their heart's desire. A happily ever after is only a short while away...in my favorite comedies, the hero only must wait until the end of the movie or television show to see all their dreams come true.
Real life is different from film...and patience is hardest when I need it the most. I keep hoping I've reached the top of the hill, feeling as if that I've almost made it, only to find out I am still in the foothills and have not yet even reached the mountain I'm supposed to be climbing. Patience is key to achieving my goals. God is giving me this opportunity to grow and I am grateful that he is teaching me to rely on his strength.
Matthew 16:24
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."
Often, I wish my job was easier. However, I know my students need me, and I can already see I've made a big difference in in their school day. They seem to want to tell me everything about their lives. They have been recently presenting me with all kinds of gifts: silly bands, plastic jewelry, coloring pages ect. It makes sense to deny myself for now, and to invest this year in my life to learn how to reach these challenging children. My passion is to reach lost little ones. I have never been in a place where I could reach so many...with about 1,200 students, the opportunities I see are tremendous. I'm praying that God gives me the wisdom to make the most of every opportunity.
I Chronicles 29:11
Yours, Lord, is the greatness and the power
and the glory and the majesty and the splendor,
for everything in heaven and earth is yours.
Yours, Lord, is the kingdom;
you are exalted as head over all.
When I most need patience, I need to focus on my goals and focus on God's greatness and power. I plan to be more in scripture and prayer this coming week, so as to make my communication with God even more a part of daily living. I want to eat, work, and play being more conscious of His presence and blessings.
The joy of the Lord is my strength. I will not let the hardships of today steal my happiness. Joy enables me to enjoy life's climb, and the journey is as important as the destination.
John 16:33
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Real life is different from film...and patience is hardest when I need it the most. I keep hoping I've reached the top of the hill, feeling as if that I've almost made it, only to find out I am still in the foothills and have not yet even reached the mountain I'm supposed to be climbing. Patience is key to achieving my goals. God is giving me this opportunity to grow and I am grateful that he is teaching me to rely on his strength.
Matthew 16:24
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."
Often, I wish my job was easier. However, I know my students need me, and I can already see I've made a big difference in in their school day. They seem to want to tell me everything about their lives. They have been recently presenting me with all kinds of gifts: silly bands, plastic jewelry, coloring pages ect. It makes sense to deny myself for now, and to invest this year in my life to learn how to reach these challenging children. My passion is to reach lost little ones. I have never been in a place where I could reach so many...with about 1,200 students, the opportunities I see are tremendous. I'm praying that God gives me the wisdom to make the most of every opportunity.
I Chronicles 29:11
Yours, Lord, is the greatness and the power
and the glory and the majesty and the splendor,
for everything in heaven and earth is yours.
Yours, Lord, is the kingdom;
you are exalted as head over all.
When I most need patience, I need to focus on my goals and focus on God's greatness and power. I plan to be more in scripture and prayer this coming week, so as to make my communication with God even more a part of daily living. I want to eat, work, and play being more conscious of His presence and blessings.
The joy of the Lord is my strength. I will not let the hardships of today steal my happiness. Joy enables me to enjoy life's climb, and the journey is as important as the destination.
John 16:33
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Innovation
Innovation always follows creativity...the more ideas you uncover, the more chances to find one that works.
When I first became a technology teacher, I did not realize how much creativity was required for this occupation. However, I've learned that creativity is fundamental to my job. Now, more than ever, since I'm creating practice work and curriculum, I must generate countless ideas and possibilities. A work session for me could take a few hours, or a few minutes, depending on the quality of the concepts I can generate.
Creativity is like loving, going to sleep, or behaving unaffectedly...the worst results often occur when someone tries their hardest.
I am praying today that God blesses me with his creativity, so that I can find not just good ways to teach my students in future weeks, but the best ways to open my students to the world of technology.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
For anyone looking to develop their creativity, I recommend reading Julia Cameron's book, 'The Artist's Way.'
When I first became a technology teacher, I did not realize how much creativity was required for this occupation. However, I've learned that creativity is fundamental to my job. Now, more than ever, since I'm creating practice work and curriculum, I must generate countless ideas and possibilities. A work session for me could take a few hours, or a few minutes, depending on the quality of the concepts I can generate.
Creativity is like loving, going to sleep, or behaving unaffectedly...the worst results often occur when someone tries their hardest.
I am praying today that God blesses me with his creativity, so that I can find not just good ways to teach my students in future weeks, but the best ways to open my students to the world of technology.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
For anyone looking to develop their creativity, I recommend reading Julia Cameron's book, 'The Artist's Way.'
Monday, September 30, 2013
Brave
"It's quiet. It's early. My coffee is hot. The sky is still black. The world is still asleep. The day is coming. In a few moments the day will arrive. It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun. The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day. The calm of solitude will be replaced by the pounding of the human race. The refuge of early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met...
I choose joy. I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I refuse the temptation to be cynical. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.
If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek his grace. And then, when the day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest."
From Max Lucado's I Choose Love: When God Whispers Your Name
Psalm 37:4-6
Delight yourself in the Lord,
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord.
Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light
And your judgment as the noonday. Trust in the Lord and wait patiently for Him.
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I choose joy. I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I refuse the temptation to be cynical. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.
If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek his grace. And then, when the day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest."
From Max Lucado's I Choose Love: When God Whispers Your Name
Psalm 37:4-6
Delight yourself in the Lord,
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord.
Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light
And your judgment as the noonday. Trust in the Lord and wait patiently for Him.
Click on the Quote below to See my Favorite Song of the Week:
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Letting Go & Letting God
"Some search for meaning in a career. They opt to be a human 'doing' instead of a human 'being.' Who they are is what they do; consequently they do a lot. They work many hours because if they don't work, they don't have an identity. For others, who they are is what they have. They find meaning in a new car, or a new house, or new clothes. These people are great for the economy and rough on the budget because they are always seeking meaning in what they own..." -Max Lucado
Without my awareness, who I was as a teacher became central to my identity. My impressive credentials, my status as a mentor teacher, my role as a lead tutor, and my feeling of responsibility towards the staff of various schools and tutoring centers as I trained them became central to my identity. Now, with all of that seemingly ripped away by the silly red tape of the CSDE, I feel a bit lost. I reel in shock that I must start all over again...my 'New Teacher Training' classes start on this coming Thursday. (NEW? New to California...). I'm retaking online classes in the evenings to get the California spin on the classes I took at Johns Hopkins School of Education in Maryland. I feel shaken to the core. Although I realize none of the red tape diminishes my talent, or my actual credentials and experience as a teacher, it is a harsh blow. I will be spending thousands of dollars and months of study and work after school hours to jump through all the hurdles the California government is putting in my path. As a person tempted to become a human 'doing' rather than a human 'being,' the California credentialing difficulties slow me down, planting the realization that my career is not me. My true identity comes from who I am in my Lord and Savior.
Leaving my spacious dream apartment in Norfolk, moving into my tiny broken apartment in Hollywood has been an ongoing disappointment for me. Another temptation I struggle with is finding my identity in what I have...I want to have a nice home to welcome friends...(I don't even have a dining room table or a microwave, so I feel for now hosting is out of the question). My apartment features are constantly breaking. My crooked unit is full of little annoyances that interrupt daily chores and startle me. For one example, hot water is labeled cold on the faucet, and cold is hot. If I am not careful, I hurt myself with steaming hot water when I am expecting refreshing cold. Moreover, sometimes I feel like a bad housekeeper, as the dry California climate is so dusty that even after I sweep and mop the apartment floors, they seem almost immediately covered in dirt again. Being a person tempted to find identity in where I live and in what I have, I certainly must learn to rise above my living situation and recognize my true identity as who I am in Christ Jesus.
God's revelation of my misconceptions about my identity and my life's meaning is a major breakthrough for me spiritually. However, realizing I have misconceptions is only the first step. Now that I have discovered the truth, it will only set me free if I apply what I have learned. I need to apply my new found freedom from making my career my identity and I must escape the imprisoning feelings that what I have or where I live represents who I am. In my everyday life, I will focus on doing my best every day because I love Jesus. I will balance my life more with less focus on maintaining and fixing my apartment and clinging to my belongings...I will cling to my times of Bible study and prayer as a priority rather than the endless cleaning that I feel I should be addressing.
This week, I will pray this prayer every day to remind me of my new direction:
Father, we confess that we keep other gods before us because we fail to remember that we have you. We steal in so many ways because we forget that you will always provide what we need. We covet worthless things because we don't see the treasure that you set before us every day. We bear false witness because we don't understand that the truth will set us free. When we think that your commandments are burdensome and confining, teach us, Lord, that they are perfect, and for our good.
Give us delight in following your commandments. Let us know that even when we waver, You are steadfast. Even when we fail, You paid the price to free us from the burden of our sin.
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Romans 8:18...
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. But if we hope for what we do not have, we wait for it patiently. In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
Saturday, September 28, 2013
My Thoughts on Jane Austen
It is perhaps worth emphasizing what may be called the hardness- at least the firmness- of Jane Austen's thought...The great abstract nouns of the classical English moralists are unblushingly and uncompromisingly used: good sense, courage, contentment, fortitude, 'some duty neglected, some failing indulged,' impropriety, indelicacy, generous candor, blamable, distrust, just, humiliation, vanity, folly, ignorance, reason. These are the concepts by which Jane Austen grasps the world.
-C. S. Lewis
Principals, such as morality and common sense, are essential to Jane Austen's craft as a writer. Jane Austen lived a simple and quiet life, seeing four of her six novels published anonymously, and she forever left her mark in the world. Her descriptive talents and her insight into human character fill readers with unbridled enthusiasm. My favorite part of Jane's books? Their happy endings.
To me, happy endings are essential. I love the phrase found at the end of many childhood tales, 'and they all lived happily ever after.' I cherish my dreams of heaven, picturing the day when Christ will bring me home to Himself, and I will find perfect peace and rest with him.
Psalm 37:4-6
Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He will do it. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your judgment as the noonday. Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him.
I love the redemptive arch that is present in Jane's stories. For example, with Catherine's story, from Northanger Abbey:
Most bitterly did she cry...then, her mind made up on these several points, and her resolution formed, of always judging and acting in the future with the greatest good sense, she had nothing to do but forgive herself and be happier than ever. - Jane Austen
If there were more Janeites today, sporting "What would Jane do?" bumper stickers, the world would be a better place.
Proverbs 14:8a The wisdom of the prudent is to give thought to their ways.
-C. S. Lewis
Principals, such as morality and common sense, are essential to Jane Austen's craft as a writer. Jane Austen lived a simple and quiet life, seeing four of her six novels published anonymously, and she forever left her mark in the world. Her descriptive talents and her insight into human character fill readers with unbridled enthusiasm. My favorite part of Jane's books? Their happy endings.
To me, happy endings are essential. I love the phrase found at the end of many childhood tales, 'and they all lived happily ever after.' I cherish my dreams of heaven, picturing the day when Christ will bring me home to Himself, and I will find perfect peace and rest with him.
Psalm 37:4-6
Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He will do it. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your judgment as the noonday. Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him.
I love the redemptive arch that is present in Jane's stories. For example, with Catherine's story, from Northanger Abbey:
Most bitterly did she cry...then, her mind made up on these several points, and her resolution formed, of always judging and acting in the future with the greatest good sense, she had nothing to do but forgive herself and be happier than ever. - Jane Austen
If there were more Janeites today, sporting "What would Jane do?" bumper stickers, the world would be a better place.
Proverbs 14:8a The wisdom of the prudent is to give thought to their ways.
Friday, September 27, 2013
Nothing More Than Feelings...
Obedience is the key to all doors; feelings come (or don't come) and go as God pleases. We might think that God wanted simply obedience to a set of rules; whereas He really wants people of a particular sort. - C.S. Lewis
This has been an incredibly demanding work week...many times I have felt overwhelmed by the power struggle students attempt to drag me into. Resisting the urge to push back, swallowing my anger when students push my buttons, calming myself to confidently pull students back into the right frame of mind for optimum learning leaves me feeling weak.
I constantly feel defeated. However, I am sensing new growth in myself. I am changing to become a particular sort of teacher, one that can handle with grace and poise whatever students surprise me with. Although my lessons often do not go as planned, I might not follow my preconceived schedules as expected (at times due to elevator malfunctions, at times due to a severe student meltdowns), and although I feel discouraged, I can look to my future and be grateful that these experiences are making me a better teacher.
However, this strengthening as a teacher does not come without a cost. I am more negative overall, and I am often held captive by doubt and fear. Will I be able to handle the unknown situations the day's classes will present me with? Will I succeed in reaching all my students? Will I be strong enough? This prayer has helped me when I am plagued with doubts:
Almighty God, in raising Jesus from the grave, you shattered the power of sin and death. We confess that we remain captive to doubt and fear, bound by the ways that lead to death. Forgive our doubting, questioning hearts. We confess the many times that our pessimism has caused others to doubt themselves, the times that our criticism has wounded others, and the times that our dejection has dampened the enthusiasm of those inspired by your Word and work.
Oh God, forgive us and in your mercy renew us. Help us to trust your power to change our lives and make us new, that we may know the joy of life abundant given in Jesus Christ, the risen Lord. Amen.
It is a daily fight for me to stay positive. When I am stretched to my limit, it would be easy to become hardened and bitter. However, a little bit of encouragement goes a long way. Adam is my hero. He saves me everyday by building my confidence.
Hebrews 3:13-13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness. We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly to the end of the confidence we had at first.
This has been an incredibly demanding work week...many times I have felt overwhelmed by the power struggle students attempt to drag me into. Resisting the urge to push back, swallowing my anger when students push my buttons, calming myself to confidently pull students back into the right frame of mind for optimum learning leaves me feeling weak.
I constantly feel defeated. However, I am sensing new growth in myself. I am changing to become a particular sort of teacher, one that can handle with grace and poise whatever students surprise me with. Although my lessons often do not go as planned, I might not follow my preconceived schedules as expected (at times due to elevator malfunctions, at times due to a severe student meltdowns), and although I feel discouraged, I can look to my future and be grateful that these experiences are making me a better teacher.
However, this strengthening as a teacher does not come without a cost. I am more negative overall, and I am often held captive by doubt and fear. Will I be able to handle the unknown situations the day's classes will present me with? Will I succeed in reaching all my students? Will I be strong enough? This prayer has helped me when I am plagued with doubts:
Almighty God, in raising Jesus from the grave, you shattered the power of sin and death. We confess that we remain captive to doubt and fear, bound by the ways that lead to death. Forgive our doubting, questioning hearts. We confess the many times that our pessimism has caused others to doubt themselves, the times that our criticism has wounded others, and the times that our dejection has dampened the enthusiasm of those inspired by your Word and work.
Oh God, forgive us and in your mercy renew us. Help us to trust your power to change our lives and make us new, that we may know the joy of life abundant given in Jesus Christ, the risen Lord. Amen.
It is a daily fight for me to stay positive. When I am stretched to my limit, it would be easy to become hardened and bitter. However, a little bit of encouragement goes a long way. Adam is my hero. He saves me everyday by building my confidence.
Hebrews 3:13-13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness. We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly to the end of the confidence we had at first.
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Let the Journey Begin
Adam & I both start our first day of class tomorrow! We are on our way...following God's roadmap for our new beginning in Hollywood, California.
For part of my devotions, I have been reading Let the Journey Begin by Max Lucado. This seems a perfect fit for me right now. Today's devotional message is on, "Set Your Compass in the Right Direction." Max encourages his readers to consider that the problem is not that God hasn't spoken, but that we haven't been listening for God's guidance. Adam and I are seeking to put God first in every way, but we can still sometimes become so busy that it is harder to seek His will through prayer and scripture reading.
We realize that devoting ourselves to the study of God's Word, and committing to praying often, will help us become more sensitive to God's gentle nudges or His quiet whisper as we begin our classes and make important life decisions. We are praying for wisdom, and that God makes clear the direction He wishes us to take in our careers and in our lives.
For part of my devotions, I have been reading Let the Journey Begin by Max Lucado. This seems a perfect fit for me right now. Today's devotional message is on, "Set Your Compass in the Right Direction." Max encourages his readers to consider that the problem is not that God hasn't spoken, but that we haven't been listening for God's guidance. Adam and I are seeking to put God first in every way, but we can still sometimes become so busy that it is harder to seek His will through prayer and scripture reading.
We realize that devoting ourselves to the study of God's Word, and committing to praying often, will help us become more sensitive to God's gentle nudges or His quiet whisper as we begin our classes and make important life decisions. We are praying for wisdom, and that God makes clear the direction He wishes us to take in our careers and in our lives.
Friday, August 9, 2013
Grace to You
Some people are auditory learners...(most teachers dream of having a class of students who learn best by simply listening to the lesson, while most students learn best by doing and seeing). Adam is an auditory learner, so he prefers to listen to Bible teaching or scripture being read instead of reading it himself. His favorite is Grace to You, presented by John MacArthur from our church, Grace Community. MacArthur is the president of The Master's College and Seminary.
Grace to You
When Adam does read, he prefers his daily devotional book, "Drawing Near."
In the morning, I sprawl out across our giant beanbag chair, with my array of Bible study books spread out across the coffee table, flitting from one book to another as I chase topics that are laid on my heart for the day's devotions...while Adam is drinking his coffee, listening to God's word online, and looking very thoughtful as he considers complicated theology and heavy doctrine with his gigantic headphones over his ears so that he will not disturb my book reading...
There are so many different ways to study His word...
Grace to You
When Adam does read, he prefers his daily devotional book, "Drawing Near."
In the morning, I sprawl out across our giant beanbag chair, with my array of Bible study books spread out across the coffee table, flitting from one book to another as I chase topics that are laid on my heart for the day's devotions...while Adam is drinking his coffee, listening to God's word online, and looking very thoughtful as he considers complicated theology and heavy doctrine with his gigantic headphones over his ears so that he will not disturb my book reading...
There are so many different ways to study His word...
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Dealing with Emotions God's Way
I went to an amazing women's Bible study last summer, and when I was just cleaning I found my notes from one of the lessons. I'm reviewing them today because I'm finding them helpful to combat the butterflies I feel in my stomach now...
When you feel emotionally stressed, ask yourself:
1) What happened? What was the actual event that brought up these negative emotions?
2) What thoughts or images went through my mind? Is this a familiar thought or emotion?
3) What emotions do I feel? Is there a time in the past that is similar?
4) What is my unbelief? What am I not believing about God in this moment? Or what wrong thinking do I have about God?
5) What is the truth? What truth about God can I remember from scripture to help me combat my fear, doubt, anger, sadness, or anxiety?
To overcome overwhelming emotions, you must exchange the lies you might unconsciously believe for God's truth. A prayer like this is helpful:
Lord, I have wrongly believed______________. Thank you Christ for dying to forgive me for this. Please Holy Spirit, cause me to believe your truth that _______________.
Instead of being overwhelmed by your emotions or your situation, or being distracted and preoccupied by your stress, ask God what truth the difficult situation will reveal about His greatness.
Remember, God is not only good, he is GREAT. None of your problems could possibly be too big for him. Negative emotions strangle our joy in Christ.
Worry pulls tomorrow's clouds over today's sunshine.
It is important to use a process such as the one above, or a prayer journal, or some method to nip negativity in the bud before it blossoms into a full blown meltdown.
Ask God to bring to your mind specific verses that deal with the issue you are struggling with. Praise God for the truths He has shown you through each difficult circumstance. Thank Him for his abundant grace.
Life is about how you face circumstances, not what circumstances you face.
When you feel emotionally stressed, ask yourself:
1) What happened? What was the actual event that brought up these negative emotions?
2) What thoughts or images went through my mind? Is this a familiar thought or emotion?
3) What emotions do I feel? Is there a time in the past that is similar?
4) What is my unbelief? What am I not believing about God in this moment? Or what wrong thinking do I have about God?
5) What is the truth? What truth about God can I remember from scripture to help me combat my fear, doubt, anger, sadness, or anxiety?
To overcome overwhelming emotions, you must exchange the lies you might unconsciously believe for God's truth. A prayer like this is helpful:
Lord, I have wrongly believed______________. Thank you Christ for dying to forgive me for this. Please Holy Spirit, cause me to believe your truth that _______________.
Instead of being overwhelmed by your emotions or your situation, or being distracted and preoccupied by your stress, ask God what truth the difficult situation will reveal about His greatness.
Remember, God is not only good, he is GREAT. None of your problems could possibly be too big for him. Negative emotions strangle our joy in Christ.
Worry pulls tomorrow's clouds over today's sunshine.
It is important to use a process such as the one above, or a prayer journal, or some method to nip negativity in the bud before it blossoms into a full blown meltdown.
Ask God to bring to your mind specific verses that deal with the issue you are struggling with. Praise God for the truths He has shown you through each difficult circumstance. Thank Him for his abundant grace.
Life is about how you face circumstances, not what circumstances you face.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
One Thousand Gifts
While driving from the east coast to the west coast, I began reading the book, "One Thousand Gifts." I highly recommend this book to anyone who is going through a rainy season in their life, or has ever asked God, "Why?" when experiencing life's tragedies or hardships.
Although the book brought me to tears during the first few chapters, it helped me to heal spiritually and reminded me to look for God's gifts in his everyday blessings.
Today, I am praising God for a new dishwasher, my favorite cereal for breakfast, and a day full of sunshine.
Book: http://onethousandgifts.com/the-book
Blog: http://www.aholyexperience.com/
My new dishwasher.
Although the book brought me to tears during the first few chapters, it helped me to heal spiritually and reminded me to look for God's gifts in his everyday blessings.
Today, I am praising God for a new dishwasher, my favorite cereal for breakfast, and a day full of sunshine.
Book: http://onethousandgifts.com/the-book
Blog: http://www.aholyexperience.com/
My new dishwasher.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Redemptive Prayers for Hollywood
This prayer card is very useful in reminding me how to pray for Adam and his actor friends. It provides 21 very practical prayer requests to focus on as I pray.
21 Redemptive Prayers for HollywoodMonday, August 5, 2013
Independent Bible Study
Adam and I have been increasing our time in personal Bible study and prayer. Our new morning ritual is to have coffee while we pursue our self driven Bible studies. I'm working on a few books at once and I read a little from each every morning. I'm using a One Year Bible Guide to read a few proverbs, part of a Psalm, a selection from the New Testament, and a selection from the Old Testament daily. I love this guide because it allows me to read straight through, cover to cover, but gives me a variety of different reading so I won't get bogged down when I hit Numbers or another difficult book.
I'm also reading "Enjoying Where You Are On the Way to Where You are Going" by Joyce Meyer. So far it is very good, one of Adam's friends gave this book to Adam for his Birthday. I keep my A to Z Guide to Bible Application on hand during my reading, and I also read a little of my favorite author, Max Lucado, in his "Let the Journey Begin." I finish up with my prayer journal and prayer card to help me remember the prayer requests of my friends and family.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Church today...
Today was children's Sunday at church, and there was a table and information on how to sign up to volunteer for the children's activities. I think it will be best to wait and see how busy my new job keeps me before I consider committing to anything new...
Church was lovely as always today. The building, the people, and the lessons we learned were beautiful.
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